My Crashing Diet

As I write I'm sitting here eating my lunch...a bag of homemade Chex mix. LOL As laughable as that is, it isn't. I'm gaining weight like mad! Well, I did have a couple days of fasting last week, not by choice, stomach flu. UGH I hate getting sick. Anyway, any amount that I had the potential to lose went right back out as soon as I could handle solid food again. We're on what you would call the "poor people's diet". The processed, I can't afford real food diet. Oh we do buy some decent food that naturally comes from some form of dirt but we save that for the kids and eat the junk they shouldn't. The things we do...I know I'm going to be so excited to see real food during the holidays that I'm going to stuff myself crazy and end up bigger than when I was pregnant. I can hear the weight loss pills calling my name already.

Balacing Act

I've been doing nothing but working the last few weeks and can hardly even get dressed anymore. The funny part is that I've always emphisized the importance of balancing work and family especially by setting hours. I know this is almost impossible to do with a toddler but I think I way under estimated how bad it really would be. The second I sit down and finally find my train of thought out the window it goes! Of course no one can actually understand this kind of frustration if they've never worked from home. I get flack all the time from other family members that I'm not doing enough. Talk about lack of respect. Those of us that do this feel lucky to have the privilege that so many would like and have to work 10x harder compared to working somewhere else. It's just ridiculous to think that we can make the same amount with the same effort. I can't wait until the holidays are over so I can relax a little again!

Kids and Christmas

I bought something for dd a couple weeks ago that I never thought I would be buying my children, a portable DVD player for kids. I know I'm going to hate myself for it later but right now we can't ever watch anything because as soon as the TV goes on she starts in on wanting to watch one of her movies. That in itself is something I hate but knowing that she can't sit still for even the first 10 mins of it helps. At the same time, one of our TVs had busted a while back and miraculously started working again after I had tracked down a free one online. That TV just sat on the floor for months so I decided to put it in DS's room knowing that he can't watch anything since the switch too digital. Poor kid, when he sees her gift I know he's going to say wth. LOL

I'd really like to do away with all of our TVs actually because they are so big and heavy. The one in his room was at risk for falling over onto someone so back on the floor it went. Maybe for his birthday I can scrounge up enough to take advantage of some of the really good tv deals that I've been seeing.

And Now...the Bad News...

I was at my friend's dd's party last weekend and of course I brought the camera. I snapped a couple of pics and stuck it in my pocket. Apparently that's not where the camera wanted to be and the next time I took the darn thing out it rebelled by ceasing to function. Ugh, another expense. I am glad that technology in that department is moving rater quickly so prices have come down a lot since I bought that one. It wasn't working all too well anyway. So now, on top of Christmas, I'm saving to pay for a new one. Yep, on Black Friday I will be out with the masses looking for sparkling new digital cameras. I miss shopping and being able to afford things for myself during Christmas...

I Love Warranties!

I think it's safe to say that my one time of wavering over an extended warranty paid off. My laptop is getting fixed and I'm SO excited! I was so worried that it wouldn't be covered and I would end up having to work on a really bad one until I could afford a new one completely. Yes, I did go as far as to explain this to the guy that took my "precious pinky" from me. LOL! For now my worry is not breaking or damaging this loaner that I ever so apprehensively am using. I couldn't imagine having to pay for anything else at this point.

Tech Trouble

I used to work for a small business that was dreaming a little too big for itself. Think McDonald's shooting for 5 stars. They were small and they were bad at business, which would make you think they'd go under on their own. They haven't unfortunately. LOL It would have helped SO much if they had managed IT services. Everything crashed all the time and it was a nightmare.

Why am I telling you this? Because I was ever so happy to be reminded of those days when my laptop crashed on me the other day. It's totally dead. Just my luck. I still have a warranty on it but my luck would say that what ever is wrong with it won't be covered. I hope someone helps me pray that it isn't the case since I totally cannot afford a new one.

On Second Thought...

I'm sitting here thinking and it just dawned on me. I think the one of the best things ever would be to work for yoursefl (doing what I don't know) and being able to do it from a motorhome! How awesome would that be?! You could travel all over the place and work when you wanted. Of course you'd need some REALLY good motorhome insurance since you'd probably want to move all the time but I think that would be super fun! Maybe "when I become rich and famous" and the kids grow up we can do something like that. LOL! I can dream about it at least.

Is There Such a Thing?

I know a couple of people that are making some really good money at a really young age. It's kind of depressing because I've always wanted to be happy with what I'm doing rather than just worry about making gobs of money (although that would be nice). Now I feel kind of dumb because I've always gone with what I wanted to do rather then chase that almighty dollar. Some times I wonder if there really will be money and happiness in a job for me. It usually ends up being that I love what I do and I'm broke or I hate what I do and I have money. Are there really people that love what they do their entire lives that make a decent living anymore? I mean, who wakes up and says "when I grow up I wanna be a consultant for marketing strategies for a major company"?

Unemployment

If you know me you'll know that this is one of my highest irritations. I cannot stand hearing all the statistics on the news knowing how incredibly wrong they are. Even more irritating is watching the news anchors sitting in their little chairs, wearing their designer clothes, pretending to be concerned about the job losses. What about the people? What about the people that haven't had a job in over a year and don't even qulify for unemployment? So many people are sleeping on the streets or where ever they can, can't afford food, and don't even have regular access to water. I'd really like to take a poll of people that lost or don't have San Francisco, Chicago, philadelphia jobs just to name a few and see exactly how many people are really out of luck.

SEO

this may sound funny coming from a blog...I know nothing about SEO. Well ok, maybe a little. It was kind of embarassing when my brother in law talked to me about it and asked how long I've been doing what I do (as if I was a professional like him). Alas, all I do is sit here and type up some crummy little blurb about what the day was like or something. Woohoo. I wish I had the time to research everything that I want to do and talk about but having a toddler is so time consuming. I've seen some things talking about the best seo software but I haven't checked it out yet. I'm thinking maybe I should(?) LOL

Halloween

It's been crazy around here and it's only about to get worse. I'm gearing up for the holidays, trying to bring in as much last minute money as I can. I know just about everyone is doing the same thing in their own ways. I wish I could really just enjoy Halloween like I used to instead of thinking of it as a marker for holiday crunch time. That's what it's been the last couple of years. All in all it was fun and the kids had a good time. Good thing since it's not going to really be fun until Christmas day. LOL